One of the episodes of my favorite TV show starts with a line: “Responsibility really does suck”.
Along with the excitement of growing old enough to drink, drive a car, stay out late and travel alone, we also receive a whole set of responsibilities.
And no one comforts us, patting on the back, telling us what’s right or wrong anymore.
We start making mistakes. We learn how to lie and pretend. We regret.
And even the best of us leave the straight and narrow once in a while.
This process is non-reversible. The older we are, the more responsibilities we get, the more mistakes we make.
We try to solve them, we deal with the guilt, we hide from ourselves or face the consequences courageously.
But the mistakes we made... they never fade away.
Today I read a very interesting article written by a famous Russian journalist Yuliya Latinina. She talks about two recent incidents giving them as very simple examples of the general situation:
First one happened in Sweden when the local SWAT mistakened the house they were supposed to attack during the training and broke into some guy’s home. The person received apologies and full compensation immediately.
Second story happened in Russia. On January 2007 during the anti-terroristic operation Russian police accidentally broke into the neighbor’s house and shot him in the back. The court pled the guy guilty in attacking the police and proved him a criminal.
Besides the interesting facts and rough analysis of the current political situation in Russia, there also was one line that dragged my attention the most: “It’s not about the mistakes we make, it’s about the way we deal with them.”
No, we don’t live in wealthy, almost non-problematic Sweden, which can afford more than a full compensation to one citizen.
We live in a small “oil-rich country” situated in a problematic region with a full set of difficulties.
But we can afford admitting our mistakes and at least trying to solve the embarrassing issues. We can try to deal with the things we cause.
Everyday we receive news from all around the country – Transport Ministry representatives beat up some truck driver and now he’s facing detention period while his 12-year-old son goes on hunger strike**; a pensioner wrote a letter to the President and was placed to the mental hospital; Azerbaijan population will have problems with domestic gas this year; 4 months have passed since Emin’s and Adnan’s arrest.
We talk about it, blame the system, curse the Government. We write articles, blogposts, facebook statuses. We discuss it over and over again with everyone we meet.
But what does the Government say? How do the people who actually cause these problems react?
Pretend as if nothing happened, as if they don’t carry any responsibility for anything that takes place in the country. They close their eyes thinking they become invisible doing this. They play with people’s lives. They act as if life is only a chess board. They live as if they’re eternal.
They act as if they’re waiting for someone to comfort, pat them on the back and tell them what’s right or wrong.
But there’s no one left to do that. Too much damage is done.
There are only mistakes and responsibilities.
That will never fade away.
**The next morning after this post was written the truck driver was charged 3 years of detention and released on probation.
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